Taking a leap of faith has lead me to so many good things in life. Like this tiny blog that started five years ago. I mean, how has time truly passed by so fast? I have absolutely no regrets starting this blog five years ago. Even if it meant writing about things that mattered to no one at the time but meant self care and love at that moment.
Life is so hard but yet has been so good. That 20 something women and mom of one at that time , is now a 30 something mom of three. Yes, three beautiful babies to call my own. Let me tell you, it has not been easy. Lots of tears shed during postpartum , anxiety …. depression if you even call it that, more crying leaving them while returning back to work from maternity leave. You see, this beautiful thing called “Motherhood” is really so, so beautiful but it is just as scary and heart wrenching.
I read somewhere that year 8 of marriage is the break it or make it year. That just happens to be exactly where I am at in my marriage. My high school sweetheart , biggest fan and supporter, the father to my children. We were babies, basically. In love. We are still in love. But man, it has not been easy. It’s not hard to love him. But it’s hard to not lose ourselves as individuals when all we’ve known is each other. We are learning to grow together and grow individually without growing apart. But I believe that all good things don’t come easy. I love this man.
And then, there’s me: Me, Myself, and I. Aside from my children and husband, who am I? I am still discovering this. My heart has been feeling open …. I’ve given my all in all aspects of my life. It is time for me to learn to love me.
I am so happy to be back here. I am happy to find that burning fuel to self express and rediscover. I’m happy to share it here.
With love,
Kay.
