Motherhood

September 30, 2019

Loving two.

We are expecting! I am 6 months along and currently expecting our second little girl. I think in the beginning and maybe even a little bit until this day, it has been a mix of excitement, nervousness, and fulfillment. June finally got off all the expensive stuff aka diapers and formula and then to realize we would be repeating it all over again for the next 2 years, I think has made us a little bit nervous. But we had such a good first baby that I would like to say she has prepared us well for our second.

With that being said, I think it took us some time to adjust to the thought of having another girl. I think a small part of us wanted a boy, in the case if this pregnancy was hard, we would be done with both a boy and girl. I think now it has really settled in that we are having a baby girl andwe are both more than excited to meet her.

Growing up I never had a sister. When I was younger, I don’t think it was that important that I had a sister growing up. But as I am getting older, I find myself in thinking about how important a sister would be in my life right now. I always tell this story because it holds a really special place in my heart. My grandmother also grew up without a sister. Before she passed away, she had told me she knows how hard it is growing up without a sister, because when you experience heartbreak or stress comes your way, you have no one to share it with. I cried the other day thinking about this because there were and are moments in my life that I couldn’t share with anyone and the thought that if I had a sister, I would’ve been able to share with her. Someone to help plan parties together, go shopping, come over for dinner, help watch each others children, care for our parents together. I am crying just writing this and am so happy I am able to give my two daughters the gift of sisterhood.

January 2020, we are awaiting your arrival baby girl.

September 5, 2018

Life as of lately.

I have been so bad at this, guys. Sorry.

I am currently at a tea house, alone….by myself. This hasn’t happened for about 6 months now, which has just made me realize, I need more nights like these. The husband is with the baby at home, and here I am preparing for a big day coming up. I needed some time to prepare so I am at a local tea house “focusing”.

Which means, I finally have chance to squeeze in a few minutes to log into here. I can’t believe summer is slowly coming to an end, and quite honestly, I have been dreading this summer heat and anxiously waiting for cooler fall weather.

Life as of lately, busy. David is now closer to home; he was able to lateral over to our home town, we are still slowly adjusting to his new schedule and make all this working parent while taking care of a baby thing work again. Change is always hard but always do-able. Here’s June at her Dad’s swearing in:

June turned 2. Yes, two! I still can’t believe it. Today she spoke of a sentence we’ve never heard her say before. She said, “Daddy what you doing?” while David was cleaning up the garage. David and I just looked at her and laughed because she is surprising us every single day. She is still so mischievous but such a joy. We love her so much.

Home updates, I finally found a dining table I felt was worth paying for. And so because that new dining table will be going into the sun room, I am in the process of painting the walls. I am currently still trying to find the perfect white (currently a beige color now). Also, David tore the built in shelves in the garage that came with the house. After more than 2 years, I think our house is slowly becoming a home.

Lastly, I had a significant loss in my life this summer, my grandmother passed away. There are no words to explain a loss like this. It still feels unreal to me that I will never be able to see her face again, I will miss her so much.

We had a great labor day weekend. I love my Monday holidays, because that means I always get a 4 day mini vacation. Here’s some photos of our beach trip.

Hoping to and looking forward to writing more here.

Kay.

April 29, 2018

Baby’s 1st Year, Must Haves!

Hi guys,

As mentioned with my last post, I’ve come up with a list of baby’s 1^st year must haves. These are just things that worked for me. June bug is turning 2 this year already but pretty much everything I’ve mentioned here are things we still use every day! Everything is listed in no particular order and in no favor of preference and again, links are provided.

April 13, 2018

Being a mom — and what it means.

Being a mom means so many things. I still can’t quite understand and explain how the love you have for someone else is more than anything in this world, …. it’s wild.

David and I were married for 3 years before we choose to have a baby. To be quite honest, I was the one who did not want to have a child and I was fine without the thought of children. We just decided one year we would try and…it happened within 1 month of trying, haha. During my pregnancy, I was working part time and I was also a full time grad student(I literally remember walking up the flight of stairs to where my classroom was on the 2nd floor and running out of breath). David was also accepted and started the Police Academy around the time I found out I was pregnant. We lived 1 hour and 30 minutes away from where he was starting the police academy and so we made the decision to move and live where he was attending the academy, for the time being. I remember on the days I was not working and/or was not in class or attending clinicals, I would make the hour and thirty minute drive to our apartment, just to be where he was.

When David finally graduated from the police academy, we made the decision to move back home completely. Having no family around us would be hard and unreliable childcare would be even harder. When we finally had June, our world changed forever. I often don’t know how I function and or am functioning with so little sleep, but one thing I learned as a parent is…you somehow just get by and you just make it work.

One thing I absolutely love the most about being a parent is seeing how my daughter develops her own personality. Each day is different and every day something new happens. To sum up my daughter’s character at the moment: feisty, affectionate, funny, serious, and joyful. The second thing I love is seeing my partner be a parent himself; I love the fact that I get to see a side of my husband that 10 years while being with him, I’ve never seen before.

However not all times are great. Prior to being a mother, I would say one of my worst traits was my short-temper. Being a mother has tested my patience so, so many times! I’ve since learned to have patience, forgive, and not worry so much about the little things. We are currently entering the terrible twos and I can definitely attest to some previews of what’s to come!

I know this blog post is out of nowhere but I just felt a little sentimental watching my almost 2 year old ride her scooter today, thinking about where time has gone! Thinking about writing a “must have” post for my baby’s first year! Stay tuned.

Kay

February 21, 2018

Beach baby.

Over President’s Day weekend, we made plans to go to Pismo Beach for a short stay. When I use to work 12 hour night shifts, I would group may shifts together and have a stretch of 5 or 6 days off, which allowed for a spontaneous road trip if we decided. However since switching to an 8-5 job, it’s been much harder adjusting to having only a short amount of days off work. So when a holiday lands on a Monday and I get that weekend along with that Monday off…I am just about dying for a mini vacation….anywhere!

Its only February so I already imagined it being a little colder for a beach trip, it was cold indeed but the sun was out and so that made it bearable.

This was our first day here. Yes, we were wearing Jackets at the beach, the wind was crazy.

This was the second day, the weather was much more calm. June: “Ocean, I see you”

Such precious moments with these two, I love you guys.

And seriously, where did my baby go? She looks so grown up here!

And this here, is a reality photo. Us waiting in a long curving line at Splash Cafe on our first day, it was super windy, June was fussing and crying to get out of the stroller. I was worried she was gonna get hit by a car and trying to put her back into her stroller, her dad was clearly not worried, … snapping away.

I cannot wait until summer and the weather is warmer. June loves the beach SO much. She did not care sand was in her eyes or mouth. She was fearless of the ocean. And acted like it was 90 degrees outside when it was 56 degrees! We’ll see you soon, Pismo!

Kay

February 13, 2018

I’ve finally committed.

Wow, welcome!

This blog has been something I’ve contemplated for so long. When the ending of this year was coming to an end, I wasn’t too sure what to look forward to in 2018. (Aside from weddings, that is, we have 5 weddings to attend this year!). Unlike all the previous years where there was always something to look forward to (finally getting married, getting pregnant, having a baby, purchasing our first home, graduating from grad school, starting a new job), this was the year where everything I had worked hard for, was there for me to finally sit back and enjoy…but I had nothing really planned or to look forward to this year.

So my husband and I had a conversation one day. The conversation was about what else we wanted to do besides work at our full time jobs, all our lives, until we retire. His response was somewhere along the lines of opening up a business in the future. My response? Was “blogging”. I have always wanted to start up a blog. Actually in the past I had created many blogs (none self hosted), however I would post up one blog post and that was the end of it. But when I told him “blogging”, I really meant, full on blogging and engagement, time and commitment to a blog. With some words of encouragement from my husband (actually he self proclaimed to be my “blog manager”) I decided to finally start on this new blogging journey.

There are so many other bloggers who I follow on a weekly basis, many of them I have followed for 5+ years, who I love and find relatable. Many of them are mothers, wives, hold part time/full time jobs, love fashion, and an overall have an enjoyable lifestyle. I figured, why couldn’t I do what they do? So not to say my life is super amazing or exciting. But there are things I love and things I do that I do wish to share and and document so that I can have something to look back on and something for myself to have. This is my little creative space and I hope you can enjoy.

Thanks for reading,